Like you, I spent much of my time after the end of a relationship wondering WHY did I choose HIM???? I married a few years after high school after finding out I was pregnant. Of course, I also at the time, thought it was the “real thing”. Even though I had my doubts, I went through with the wedding and gave birth to a beautiful daughter.
During the first few years of my marriage, I was quite oblivious as to the reality of my situation. My husband couldn’t hold a job. He was supposed to be paying bills, but as it turned out he was gambling all of our money away instead and lying to me every step of the way. A few years later I was pregnant again and gave birth to a handsome little boy.
Finally, my eyes were opened. I can’t remember exactly what happened that enabled me to see the truth. I suppose a lot of little things over time. After standing up for myself and my children by kicking him out, I was left there beating my head against a wall asking myself the famous question. “WHY DID I CHOOSE HIM!?!?!”
Of course, I wouldn’t trade my children for the world. In fact for a long time, I fully felt that was the only good thing to come out of the marriage. After some time, I finally came to accept my choice and decision in marrying my first husband. I also began understanding the reasoning behind why I made the choice, along with why he has chosen to no longer be in my children’s lives.
Then it happened again. Yup, that same old pattern showed up. The one I thought I’d put a stop to after the first one marriage ended. LOL : ) I certainly didn’t see it coming, as many don’t. My boyfriend moved in. My children were so young after my first divorce, this new love of my life soon became their “dad” and we played the happy family for a few years.
Until…you guessed it…the bottom fell out again. WHAT??? I did it again??? Made ANOTHER mistake? This time it wasn’t a gambling addiction that eventually came to light, it was an alcohol addiction. Again, I thought “if only….I can “fix him”. So, I stayed and watched the man I love throw his life away AND drag me and my kids down with him. I began believing the horrible things he would say to me and by the time I finally pulled my bootstraps up to move on without him I felt so beat down and unsure of myself I didn’t even recognize the woman staring at me in the mirror anymore. I certainly was doubting every choice I had ever made by this time and questioning every choice that would come in the future.
My children had been through two father figures and neither was any good for them. I lost who I was, had no idea what I wanted, and had decided that no matter what choice I made would be wrong.
Luckily, I found individuals to help me stop repeating the same mistakes over again. I decided I was putting a STOP to the same patterns and types of men I was frequently attracting. And I’m proud to say I did.
I received a Soul Realignment reading and clearing, which removed blocks and restrictions in my Soul-record that defined who I attracted into my life. I also took the time and searched deep inside myself to find the meaning behind my previous relationships and discovered my true self and desires. I’m finally happy and can proudly state I am no longer attracted to the WRONG man. WOO HOO!!!
